so, even though i have not finished studying. been real unmotivated to study. been so emo.....yeah...never thought i would use that word! so tried to get it out of myself by forcing myself to go for a run this morn. i only managed 10min before giving up. its not that i have no aerobic fitness, its just that i couldnt bring myself to spend >10min of my time thinking about nothing! thoughts just kept flooding back. really bad. so headed off to chara's house to study with her. ended up doing a bit of work + some crying over the phone to parents cos of the stress + grocery shopping. so finally now, at 11pm, i feel i am all ready to hit the books!
even driving back from chara's house to my place, i had to take a diff route, so as not to feel emo. I cant play any music now cos something may set it off and trigger me to go back there. I just have to look forward and FOCUS.
God, pls help me to take all these distractions away and stop being so emo about everything!!
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