tried not to feel lost. but ended up making such a big mistake. was scheduled for urology clinic with a surgeon. didnt read time table properly, and missed the whole morn of it. luckily, found out at lunch time and stayed there till 5pm. saw a vasectomy.
trying so hard not to think at it. but just feeling lost now. 10 weeks till exams. blergh. at the petrol station, bought a kit kat and microwavable cheese macaroni. the guy asked....thats your dinner? yes it is:( currently have a headache.
why must my surgeons start ward rounds at 7am???!?!@#$##@
plus, i wanted to escape and do more self study, or slack.....but NO.....he wants a time table from us, to keep track of what we are doing!!!
i keep repeating to him, in disbelief, 7am everyday????
and he says to me, " u are a athlete, you know what discipline is...."
yeah.....i wouldnt say i have any discipline, so wouldnt say that i am an athlete. maybe pseudo-athlete. yeah.....i try to be one, but i am not!
I HATE THIS. ALL OF THIS. i used to be so happy, always so positive. now, its so hard to be positive. I cant fight anymore.
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